Thursday, February 02, 2006

Do i love or hate myself?

This was the topic of discussion when i last went home. My mom and aunt both being english profs, these kinda discussions are pretty common. Well that much for the topic. I blah blahed whatever that came to my mind and thought there would end the matter. But later that one small question has triggered in me a series of thoughts, opinions about what we feel about ourselves. We take pride in most of whatever we do (if not everthing). As time passes ...the deeds that were a moment of pride appear to be too trivial to be thought about. I at times love myself soooo much that the mind loses its discretion between good and bad and do things that feel right to me. Once that self admiration subsides, i start contemplating my past actions. I go crazy some times...wonder if this kinda things happen only to me or its only natural. Lots and lots to express ...but as i am writing this my already unstable mind is racing towards one more of such kind of intriguing thoughts. So thats all i guess......hope next time i'll be able to control my mind more to write a longer post.